Here I am again, laying in my bed with my computer. The last couple of days have been extremely difficult for me. I continue to do what I always do. I wake up, pray, read something inspiring to help motivate me, and then I post a couple quotes on my facebook pages. But, I am still unmoved and unmotivated.
My soul never stops aching. I feel very tired in my mind and body.
I pray for a clear mind and a healed heart daily. There is always a deep pain and loneliness that never ceases.
The girls seem to be doing ok. My God, how I have tried to make sure that I have been there for them. Will I ever really know? Will the girls ever really know what this nightmare has done to them? None of us will ever be the same again.
How do WE keep it together? I will continue to pray for a clear mind and a healed heart. God, guide me in the direction that you would have me go. Fill me and our family with the strength and perseverance to continue to move forward. I do have faith that God has a plan. I just get tired.