Sunday, February 20, 2011

God, Clear my Mind and Heal my Heart

It's a little after 9:00AM the house is still quiet. The sun is out and the sky is clear. I am trying to stay in this moment. My thoughts are all over the place....what to do first, where am I going today. I need to find this book that I have been looking for. It's in the garage in a box. If I go in the garage to look for it, I will have to move and go through some of Matt's things. I know I should...but, I just can't bring myself to do it! Oh my God, is my heart ever going to heal, even a little? I always feel so lost. I just keep going, going, and going. I don't know where I am going but I just think that I CAN"T stop moving or I will die. Have I failed my girls because of my grief?
God, Please clear my mind and heal my heart!